lessons learned

I'm feeling a bit better today. I now have a part in the play which helps a bit but I know that Daniel's going to be all "ya happy now?" and angry and all. How am I ever going to get back to good terms with him? *sigh* they complain about how I'm never happy. Well after tasting happiness for that short time, I don't want to lose it again. And I couldn't be happy where I was before. Now I am moderately happy, content more like it. But I still feel bad about things. But for now I'm happy. Daniel will recover. He will be forgiven (but not forgotten) and things will hopefully go back to normal. But that will have to wait until he can cool down and jump off the mountain, because in the metaphor that Drizzt once put it, "The climb to the top of the mountain of personal pride is a lonely, glorious, climb with fewer and fewer hand and foot holds where the gusts of wind blow hard and the higher you go the longer you'll fall and eventually you will fall just like everyone else" I think that would be my advice for him. Not that he'd listen. This will have to be a lesson that he learns on his own. In the mean time, I will be here. With open arms, welcoming eventually, ready to forgive, but until then "you don't see me, you don't see me, you don't see me at all"