I never up...

I never update this thing. And I guess that I don't give a shit if Gianni's stalkin me an reading it anymore. I'm only going to put a few entries as friends only because no one reads this thing anyways so I could probably just go alsdkfja;sditjupasidjoa;irhj ara547354684541aild~que? on here and then post some annoying shit or porn or something and no one would notice. But I don't care. It's my journal. It was free (unlike a certain simila journaling site that happens to be sort of undead). I can do whatever I want. But right now you know what I really want to do? I was cleaning out my emails in my account today because I've got 6MB of emails on there and should clean out soon. Though i can say that I deleted a whole MB of crap that I found in the corner from Gianni, I can say that I found more to delete and was able to bring the usage down to about 5.9MB, (wow, such difference). But I figured I'd do one of those wierd ass surveys that we used to pass around when I was a freshmen. It was supposed to make us get to know eachother better, but it just added to some nice misconceptions and stereotyping and useless info that you bring up later and people get really creeped out. But yeah. ------------------GENERAL INFO------------------*Starting Time: 9:49*Date: June 10, 2004*Name: Amanda Lyn Vivrette*Nicknames: manda, serenity rose, she of a thousand sorrows, pest, leech, disease to mankind, that gothic chick, silent #17, Sphyrna Lewini, satan, little gianni (fuckers), macarena, Mandy, George, Cupcake, beast, Temperence C.*Birthday: October 30, 1988*School : SHHS*E-mail: IThinkIMadeAPoopie@poop.com*hair: Right now it's dark brown but I'd like it to be black and blue like sera rose*Height: 5' 2"*Brothers/Sisters: none*When is your bedtime? whenever I feel like it or whenever my dad comes out to yell at me for being up late. Basically between 12 and 2AM------------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------* Ever been so drunk you blacked out: never* Missed school Bus: never lived far enough away to take the bus* Put a body part on fire for amusement: no...* Been hurt emotionally: hmmm I wonder... no shit.* Kept a secret from everyone: Yes.* Had an imaginary friend: I was too much of a realist/cynic as a child so no* Wanted to hook up with a friend: Yes...* Cried during a Movie: Yes.* Had a crush on a teacher: no. that would be gross* Ever thought an animated character was hot: oh yeah!* Had a New Kids on the Block tape: um...* Been on stage: chorus, drama, violin and piano* Cut your hair: I was 5. Then in 4th grade I think, I trimmed my eyebrows... yeah... I looked... great* Been sarcastic: you've got to be kidding (Tak voice)------------------FAVORITES------------------* Shampoo: Back to Basics: Green Tea* Soap: this Camomile and Wildflower stuff that I have (mmmm, I smell good ^_^)* Color: blue, I also like some bright to dark reds and of course black (which goes with nearly everthing)* Day/Night: Night* Summer/winter: Autumn* Music: I like lots of stuff, ambient, hard rock, alternative, techno, it goes on, I don't bother to memorize genres* Lace or satin: satin :)* Cartoon Character: Raven from Teen Titans* Fave salad: just a nice regular one with ranch* Fave Ice Cream: Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough :p* Fave Subject: Math and Science. I like drama too* People you talk to online: Caree, Shorty, Daniel, Eric, Alia, Ali, Serina, Lauren (thegreenmooseofdoom), Karen, Josh, Ashley, Elaniah Caster (Desta), Aaron, and occationally Kenny. * Wearing: My cherry dress that my mom made me (with the straps falling down because no one is here to watch me), and fishnet stalkings* Hair is: Messy, and growing farther into my face everyday. In desperate need of bleaching and dying. * I'm feeling: kinda crappy, I don't feel well, and I'm depressed and kinda self-doubting * Eating: lovely lovely spit* Drinking: the "perfectly safe" tap water* Thinkin bout: a couple of people, and tomorrow* Talking to: no one, I'm appearing offline so I don't have to talk to people* Watching: for movement outside in the bushes----IN THE LAST 24 HRS HAVE YOU------------------* Cried: yes, and I've been damn close several times as well* Worn a skirt: yes* Met someone new: right...* Cleaned your room: last 24 hours? try 24 months +* Drove a car: I wish I could...---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------------* Yourself: pft, who the hell do you think i am?* Your friends: yes, I believe strongly in all of them and support them, just some more than others. I believe in them but I don't believe all of them...* Santa Claus: no, ali told me he wasn't real when I was 11* Tooth fairy: no, he only came a few days later when I told my parents that I had lost a tooth....* Destiny/Fate: I guess. i mean I think it can be changed, but I believe some things were meant to happen and some people were meant to meet* Angels: Yes.* Ghosts: I guess* UFO's: yup, mom's UFO. She gets me up at 5 AM "look honey, it's my UFO, it's blinking and flickering" "mom, that's venus" then i go back to bed.* God: Yes, very strongly* Grinch: You mean Jocelyn?----------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------* Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend: no...* Like anyone?: I don't really like people, that would imply a crush. I don't do crushes, they're superficial and centered on looks or popularity. However, I do care for people, or fancy them if you will. (something strange just happened, it smells like fly repellent or the makeup I used to wear when I'd play dress up as a little kid, wierd)neways* Who have you known the longest of your friends: Ali * Who's the loudest: Ashley can be at times* Who's the shyest: mindy or Liz* Who's the weirdest: shorty or eric* Who do you go to for advice? well I used to go to Daniel for advice but lately he's been taking my questions of advice as complaints and just telling me that I should shut up and stop whining and just fix it myself (because it's so easy)* Who do you cry with: myself... and my pillow* What's the best feeling in the world: Feeling wanted and loved or being in love or maybe just happiness or contentment to the point of bliss and floatyness...* Worst Feeling: Betrayal or being unwanted, hated, unloved* Who will respond to this email fastest: this isn't an email* Who sent this to you: gianni, daniel, shorty, ali, alia, zelea, and a few other people 2 years ago...* Do you want all your friends to do this and send it back: no* Finish time: 10:19PMNext Survery, I made this one myself<-------Right Now---------> Name: Amanda L. Vivrette Nicknames: Mandy, George, Satan, Cupcake, beast, pest, TGCAlias': Macarena Vivrette, Sphyrna Lewini, Dionaea Muscipula Birthday: 10/30/88 Age: 15.5Starting time: 10:20 PM What music are you listening to right now: To Die For by The Birthday MassacreWhat are you eating/drinking: Chocolate Chip cookiesHair Color: Dark BrownEye Color: Green with hazel in the centerBed time: Whenever I feel like it or when my dad comes out to yell at me. Usually between 12 and 2Personal Motto: Live forever or die trying Height: 5'2" Thinkin about: My final tomorrow, and some things that I have planned to do with people over the next weekTalking to: No one at allFeeling: Tired and Depressed and cold <------Do you believe in-------> Santa: sorta or at least used to, he drank a whole bottle of whisky and half a bottle of margarita mix that I left out for him!Angels: yes, definately. They walk amung us every day.God: YesHeaven: can't say, I'm not dead yet Hell: yes, it's full of purple fire, and it disturbs me, though life is a living hell The Devil: unfortunately yes, and he likes to take on the forms of people (mostly males) that I know and bother me Ghosts: yes, Goldie lives upstairsAliens: Why is my ass beeping again?Destiny: yes Yourself: ha, what do you think? Monsters: you mean me when I get out of bed in the morining? Vampires: yes, Laural thinks I'm one Good Dreams come true: hasn't so far Bad Dreams come true: yes, everyday Life after death: yes, sort of<-------Favorites-------> Song(s): Right now I'm really into A Warm Place by Nine Inch Nails Music Group/Singer(s): I dunno, The Birthday Massacre?CD(s): Thirteenth Step?Color(s): Blues, bright to dark reds, blackCar(s): I dunno, I don't care. TV show(s): Osbourns, Simpsons, Invader Zim, Pie/cake(s): Lemon Merange Food(s): Can't really say, I don't really eat anymoreDrink(s): Cherry Coke Website: magichateball.com Time of Day: Night time/after midnight Time of Year: fall Relative: Cousins John or AaronShampooh: Back to Basics Green Tea Soap: dunno, anything that smells good and doesn't make me break out.Ice Cream: Rootbeer float or cafe almond fudge Best Dream(s) ever: When I found like $2000 on the ground in small bills!Worst Dream(s) ever: 1st there is when the satanists who have the faces of all of these people I know and trust are putting me up as a sacrafice, 2nd finding the gates to hell in my living room (you know, nothing really emotionally damaging (sarcasm)) Movie: Men in Black or Waking Life Thing to do when bored: fill out surveys while humming the Tetris song Animal: Penguins! <--------How long has it been since you last...-----------> Cried: 3 hours Met someone new: i dunno 6 hours?Sent an email: 4 hoursBathed (stinky!): 40 minutesSmoked: never, I have bad enough lungs already Ate: a few hours Watched TV: 0Cleaned your room: 3-5+ years Chewed gum: 4 days I think Went Shopping: dun knowTripped and fell on your face: a few days now, I'm on a roll! Were actually genuinely nice to someone: dunno a few hoursYelled at a homless person: a few days Fell out of your chair: 2 months now wahoo! Walked into a poll, door, pillar, or other hard surface while distracted by something: 3weeks now, another personal record! Set yourself on fire: a day or so... Stared at somone without realizing it: 0 days Talked to your imaginary friend: 3 years, thats when he had the accident and we put him out of his misery...Been Sarcastic: 0 minutes Woke up: 16.5 hours Expirienced Deja Vous: 2 Days Felt Happy: 6 hoursFelt Sad: 0 minutes Felt Physical pain: 0 minutes Felt Emotional Pain: 0 minutes Painted your nails (yes, guys too): 0 daysSaw a UFO in the sky: 2 daysSaw a shooting star: 2weeksWere abducted by aliens: a few daysFilled out another weird survey that your friend sent you: 0 minutes Stop time: 12:28I just got an idea for a name for a band. You could call your band "That one Band" or "I Don't Remember Who It's By" tee hee